- Day 1
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buoyant_spirits
- August 11th, 2011
He, whom i once held so dear to me, has finally used his last trump card.
A promise that didnt last too long after said.
What was it when we both agreed not to read too much into it, what about the same perception we used to have? i thought we were suppose to walk hand in hand tgt, regardless of what.
How do i mend this broken heart, i feel that doomsday is here, too soon.
what made the day worst was.... i had to put up a strong front.
i cried discretely, uncontrollably at work, i wish i could be stronger, braver.
My eyes got puffy and everyone could tell sth is not right with me, emotions overwhelmed me this time, too much for me to handle.
I turned down an offer right after i knew he wasn't feeling good about it; i could tell from the text. This is some of those times when you know you will sacrifice things for ppl whom you love so much, without much hesitation.. i am glad i did that, it shows so much of his significance in me, its always great to have someone to think of in every big or small occurrences in life, he is important to me, i confirmed myself again today, feeling proud of my action.
anyhow its true, the job requires long hours, taxing enough to make one shagged after a day. ultimately i would be the one looking after my family, i want to cook meals at least thrice a week, i want to do household chores to maintain a comfy home to stay, so i decided to stay put and till further notice on where i should go. what he said have always made sense, and never fail to enlighten me.
i felt better talking to you-buoyant spirit, afterall you stored so much of our good memories.... u seen us grown, and withered. ,
Truth to be told, he is never mine anymore.
I miss him truly. deeply. madly.